shenevermisses: (Far away from here)
Clove ([personal profile] shenevermisses) wrote in [personal profile] not_a_troll 2013-03-04 09:28 pm (UTC)

written [filtered to Loki]

[Significant other.

That term, there. Makes sense. She can accept that term. Because it's true. Cato means a lot to her. He is significant.

But then Loki goes on. Even though he can't see her, she shakes her head.]


I don't love him.

People like us-- The ones raised in District Two's Academy for the Games. We don't love anyone. It's trained out of us early on. Some of us still get married, have families, but it's... different. You learn not to get attached. I learned not to get attached.

If it came down to it, with Cato and me? If I had to choose between saving him and saving myself? I'd save myself. He'd save himself, too. Because that's what we're trained to do. Survive. Not love someone else.

[And, in that moment, she hates it again. It's something that comes and goes, but, right then, she hates herself for it. Because she's too shut off, too distant from everything. There's something fundamentally missing in her. Something she never learned or that was taken from her.

Because no matter what the Malnosso like to let her pretend in shifts, she knows the truth. She and Cato aren't capable of love.]

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